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You know this life is so hard mentally. I have lived all my life trying to do what is right. But seems that on every turn I just get shot down. My mom and sister used to always put me down. I do not even think they even knew that they were doing it? Or maybe I deserved it. I am 67 years old and I am just tired of trying to do what everyone wants me to do. I was born into the LDS religion and I have never felt like it was the right religion for me. I was always expected to do all these jobs in the church and I thought that was what God wanted me to do. But I felt like they were taking over my life. I want to make my own decisions about life. At this stage of my life I just want to live a very simple life with simple things. I do not really need people just my family. Why is it that I can always read between the lines? People say one thing but I interpret it as they want me to do something for them. Is that wrong? I think I should just act stupid and ignore my interpretation. It is all mental. I think way too much. I am not going to do family search anymore because it seems like I am always doing something wrong and someone tells me about it. However when I get into the records I find things that are wrong and I try to correct them. the only person that I care about pleasing is God.